My Own World

Necro ~

2011-08-31T14:55:00.002+08:00

Aiseh, time to blow off the dust off my blog... well, a little resurrection for whoever who is still reading anyway...

It's about 8 months since I last posted... hmm, that's quite awhile, but who cares? I'm the boss here =X

Well, normally I don't update regularly because I don't have much to say actually, or rather, if I say them, will there be anyone listening? So now I guess me and my blog are buddies now... haha, I'm going to tell him things because I'm sure he'll remember :D

Today is independence day, not like it affects me a lot, most importantly, today is the day I start anew, with new resolutions and priorities in life.

In the middle of trials currently, still have accounts paper after the holidays ==" why is trials around the holidays anyway?

Raya celebration was ok... well, if you're wondering why my family celebrate raya... its a pretty long story, but anyway, we kinda celebrated it, went around malacca and visiting a few relatives here and there and had lots of food.

Thanks @ Mohana for the reader's digest, helps keep my holiday a little less boring :D

Chee Jong just left for Canada recently, all the best to him at his new place :D

*My heart's a stereo, It beats for you, so listen close~ *

Worried Worried

2011-01-04T20:44:00.003+08:00

Well yea, I know worrying has no help in making decision or in doing anything whatsoever, but I just can't help it when everything seems to be so unclear at this point.

Even music can't calm me down, just feel like breaking down and cry... Who said guys can't cry? I certainly am not afraid about what you think about me.

But well, I guess you can laugh at me for being so worried at this stage of life, but seriously, who hasn't been worried about what their future holds anyway?

Think positive... think positive... think positive...

Anyway, I have a nice song to share...

p/s: I don't think I'm becoming emo. thx :D

It's the Holidays Already?

2010-11-02T19:42:00.004+08:00

Time flies they say, and yes indeed, another year has gone. Examinations are gone, and holidays are here to stay... for awhile I guess, next thing I know, it is going to fly by too. I guess I'm getting worse at talking to myself... or more like, talking to the computer. I have to say that I blog less frequent... just not too appealing anymore, well, it's better to talk to someone rather than a computer right?

Thanks be to God, I'd manage to get through the examination season. It was quite a stressful one I'd say, but thanks for the strength He has given me, I've manage to get through it, and still score. Very much satisfied with my grades and marks. Amen ~

Now, there are more things to come, Graduation Night and Scouts for instant, I've got camps and functions running up, I guess I wouldn't be too free to just sit here and do nothing. Fret not, It's a blessing in disguise! At least I won't rust sitting here all day long. Just so you know, I believe that everything is a blessing somehow. Like this verse I came across recently.

James 1:2-4 "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything"

So I guess I'll have to gear myself up for the upcoming challenges as well as form 5's life will kick in real soon, and before I end, I would like to wish my friends a Happy Deepavali, and all the best in your life.

God bless.

Busy...

2010-09-24T17:13:00.003+08:00

Busy nowadays... with lots of things to catch up on, especially homework and studies, examinations are crawling closer... scary.

Now that scout's farewell dinner - a trip to Port Dickson - and prefects' farewell dinner - a dinner at Sungei Ujong Club - are over, most things are cleared up and I thought I would finally be able to knuckle down and concentrate on my studies. How wrong I was.

First up, I'm having this... everything-has-to-do-with-you-post, keeps me on my feet most of the time. It's this head-boy post, my job runs daily... I don't get a break, except for Saturdays and Sundays. There are many new things I'm exposed to, and many new things that I realized I never did back then.

Every time a system in school breaks down, every time the students run out of the assembly ground, every time the canteen is in the mess, every time the prefects get into trouble, every time the student manage to sneak down Gate A... it all has something to do with me... It's actually quite sickening... Not that I could help it, worst is it'll last for another year.

Next up is graduation night... I thought I could do it after the year-end examination, again I was wrong. Meetings are running up, jobs need to get done and problems arising. Honestly, I didn't want to attend this graduation night if possible, but since I've already been tied to it by someone I have to give face to... might as well admit defeat. Maybe some would say I should do this so that next year's people would do it for me too, but tell you what, I don't care if I

have a prom next year, it's a waste of cash. I'd rather not have one. Maybe I'm ignorant, but if you have time to spare, tell me what good prom does. Thanks.

You don't have to question my commitment towards my work, when it is my work, I will get it done.

After all these ranting, I still owe some people my thanks for giving me support and guidance all these while, much appreciated. God willing, everything will go fine.

Motivator for the Day

2010-08-22T21:05:00.009+08:00

Life is all in how you look at it. Through the way you choose to look at it, you can make your life into anything you wish.

What if you could transform your resentment for having to do something into enthusiasm for getting it done? The powerful and amazing thing is, you can.
Instead of being angry about something that's happened, you can be determined to make it right. Instead of being disappointed by the setbacks, you can be motivated by the new possibilities they've created.

What are you looking at, that looks difficult or painful or annoying or just plain impossible? What if you looked at it differently?

You can choose your perspective, you can choose your feelings, you can choose your thoughts, your words and your actions. No matter what life sends your way, you can choose how to look at it and what to do with it.

Get in the habit of looking at life with love and gratitude, and with enthusiasm for the positive possibilities. When you look, see the life you wish to live, for you have what it takes to make it be.
-- Ralph Marston

With Greater Power...

2010-08-15T20:48:00.004+08:00

...comes greater responsibility... right, like you haven't heard of it, everyone heard of it, at least once in their entire life. I think it was from Spiderman... or is it?

Just recently I was made head boy of the school, and that has made changes in me. I wouldn't say it is a bad thing, I would take it as a chance to improve myself. Like they say, for everything gained, there is something that you will lose.

What I lost, is myself. What I gained, is another part of me. I used to be someone who doesn't really care about what is happening around, a happy-go-lucky person, where the biggest thing you can worry about is... having a good game on DotA? well, I can't think of anything to worry about back then. Stress-free, care-free.

As of now I have to become someone who needs to be on his best everyday. From the way my hair is combed, to the shoes that have to be polished. Well, I'm serious, now I'm using hair oil to tidy up my hair, I think it's been years since I last use that. I don't get to play around in class, or sleep in it, or leave my homework undone or anything-bad-or-mischievous-you-can-think-about. Now it is planning everyday, worrying about future events, organizing them, lots of cash involved, lots of people involved, lots of skills involved, from leadership skills to communication skills to whatever skills there is on your mind.

My blog's description says it all, nothing matters here, I could say what I want... but really, I won't be surprised to be informed by teachers/students/whatever people that I need to watch what I say on my blog.

As the workload increases, I'm lucky to have people to help me, whether they will help or not, it would've been another story, but I know there are some I can fully count on... you know who you are. =]

But as usual, I won't have to worry, God is always there, even when human fails me. (not saying they will, at least some people)

John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you, I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

August

2010-08-01T12:59:00.003+08:00

A blink of an eye... and August is already here, Have been relaxing since the mid-term examinations, and now another round of them in 2 weeks time. Time flies... I could still remember the first day of form 4 when we were about to pick our respective package of subjects... heck I could even remember back then when I was in kindergarten... but the first day of form 4... felt like it just happened recently.

In fact, a lot has happened this year, many thrilling experiences, more homework, and more responsibility to take on. After most of the annual general meetings (AGM) in our school... some are happy, some are sad, some wanted the posts, some don't want them. It could have been an opportunity to build up your personality at a price of extra responsibility.

Sometimes I doubt myself, whether I could lead properly, whether people would really support me, and forgive me if I make mistakes... we're all humans after all, I just hope I wouldn't be the one that causes the downfall of the uniform body I'm holding now. Like in history textbooks and supported by Pn Noraini (history teacher), every kingdom, country, and state would have its peak, and would have its downfall. Hopefully, downfall doesn't come under my lead.

Well, I know I don't have to worry beacuse...

Matthew 6:24-34 "

“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labour or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendour was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

Even if you don't believe what the bible says, part of it is true anyway, worrying won't add a single hour to your life, might as well enjoy while you're at it, life is short they say...

Sick, Run, Sicker

2010-07-12T20:36:00.003+08:00

Sick since Saturday, didn't get much rest because there was a swimming competition held at the Paroi Swimming Stadium for 2 days, which is Saturday and Sunday, and Sunday was one of the worst day because I went for the Seremban Half Marathon, running for the pewter, and I managed to get the 273^rd placing compared to last year's 288^th placing. Conclusion? I run better when I'm sick. The day just got worse when I went for accounts tuition (no choice, it's my only source of accounts education) and when I got back home, I cleaned up and went straight to sleep, skipping dinner altogether.

Monday, and I'm still feeling a bit sluggish, but I had a weird feeling, this is the only time I felt like staying at home when I get the chance to do so, I remembered last year I was sick but I insisted on going to school. Maybe skipping school for a day isn't that bad, but I went there around 1:45 to fetch my homework, pass up my Chemistry, met Tengku for awhile, and went for a meeting.

The amount of homework given for a day is enough to last for a week, especially Chemistry, but I couldn't believe my ears when people said that someone in my class complained to the principal that the teachers gave too less homework for us to do. Well, isn't that contradicting? A lot of us couldn't finish our homework on time, and it just doesn't make sense for someone to complain that the amount of homework given is too less.

# edit 1: oh no... it wasn't quantity, its quality... makes sense now... but not much too.

I guess that's all for now, going to do my homework.

It just flew away

2010-07-08T18:14:00.004+08:00

Yeap, my tie clip, it just flew off when I'm on the way to the Paroi Swimming Stadium... wasted RM5. pity...

Update on today, 10 minutes into school and *WHAM* we've got a history essay to write. like lol, not to forget the chemistry and additional maths that also took part in making my homework list longer. The prefect meeting today... well, I appreciate what they're trying to do, but I would appreciate further if we're informed first, I won't say that it doesn't bring any good, but well, I'd prioritize my homework. No offence, to anyone who is offended. You won't believe how much homework our chemistry teacher can give, I'm not complaining about it, because it is our job as a student, just merely informing.

For scouts, I'm really feeling the pressure, I always have this thinking that whatever order I gave will be ignored flat... well who am I to order people around anyway? I don't have the power to do so, but unfortunately for me, my chairman asked me to ask them to do this and do that... so at least I could convince myself I can pull off something without making a fool out of myself. Hopefully I could lead well in the future, thanks to those who have supported me all the while, and that includes the entrepreneur day, and campfire (registration).

My mum's taking me and my elder sister out for a movie tonight - Eclipse as you all know, my sister has been making wall posts on facebook since like... yesterday? I got a small part of chemistry due tomorrow, hopefully, I won't feel too tired after the movie, so I could finish up whatever I've left.

Would really like to thank God for these blessed days of my life, that includes God Himself who provides me with all my needs, strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way, and my family who provides the basic needs and care, friends that made my day, and almost everything that I have. truly He know that I'm thanking Him from within, but I just couldn't help myself.

My Wish For You

2010-06-21T21:39:00.001+08:00

“This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.” - Anonymous

End of Holidays

2010-06-20T10:53:00.005+08:00

So hmm, 2 weeks gone, just like that. I didn't really did much thing for the purpose of indulging myself. No trips other than the 2 hours visit to the Port Dickson beach... which is kind of boring, and not to mention hot. I don't think I will miss PD. Out of the 2 weeks, I think I've went to school for at least 10 days. 10 out of 14? why... I'm surprised myself.

Mostly helping out in school, first few days at the Bilik Peperiksaan doing stuffs for the PMR candidate, and most of the days spent in doing stuff for the scout campfire which is going to be held on the 26th of June. That includes chopping down bamboo, getting rid of the shoots or whatever you call it on the bamboo, move them to school (I didn't do this though...), dig holes which are quite deep, plant the bamboo, collect stones, put the stones in, covering up the hole, and tying them together. Well, its worth the experience, it'll definitely help me next year.

On the 19th, the Red Crescent Society (RCS) had their annual charity night. I was on duty as security. It's fine overall, and I think they made nett profit.

To this very last day, I still have accounts tuition, I actually have to go to school to help clean up 5 Mawar, but I guess I don't have time since I still have biology stuff to do... The only homework for the holidays, what a ~~party~~ holiday pooper.

And so, that concludes my 2 weeks holiday, I enjoyed while it lasted, who says you can't enjoy yourself while working? Everyone can learn how to love their job.

“Whoever has really sacrificed anything, knows that he wanted and got something in return” -Friedrich Nietzsche

Fast... and Dangerous

2010-06-16T20:17:00.002+08:00

Today, I took my mum for a ride, to Family Store to get bread from Baggi which has 50% discount after 8p.m. My mum offered to drive me there, but I insisted I wanted a ride either way, as in, I ride, you sit behind.

So well, the journey was ok, just alot of comments from my mum like "Slow down!", "stop at the junction!" and etc. etc. She said 5 years of her life was wasted on that just 1 ride, could you believe that. Safe and sound, back at home, I doubt she would ever want a ride again.

My riding is labeled as - DANGEROUS - so, beware those who want a ride from me.

Mid-year holidays.

2010-06-14T21:59:00.003+08:00

This has got to be the worse holiday ever. I know I'm not the only one, but hell, going to school when it is suppose to be a holiday. Guess we couldn't help it, everyone is desperate, everyone is getting so busy. Everyone doesn't have time, time is running out of their grasp. Bad time management? I wouldn't know. Everyone is so focused on their own stuff, that some things everyone used to enjoy is lost. Just hope to get through this freaking thing fast because I'm not enjoying it, not one bit.

So freaking tired, I couldn't even wake up for my dinner today after an afternoon nap, I didn't even realize that my mum and sister tried to wake me up so we could go out for dinner. In the end, they "tapau-ed" food for me. How sad.

“Maybe you don't like your job, maybe you didn't get enough sleep, well nobody likes their job, nobody got enough sleep. Maybe you just had the worst day of your life, but you know, there's no escape, there's no excuse, so just suck up and be nice.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson

Shoes

2010-05-30T22:25:00.008+08:00

Hey ya'll, I got a new pair of shoes today, well, not that I asked for it, but because it was on offer, my dad bought it for me, looks pretty cool doesn't it? white + gold, credits to my sister, Carol for making the checkerbox lace. =]

Cost around RM40. Don't have the chance to wear it for now, examinations are in the way. Soon perhaps.

Rant

2010-05-20T22:38:00.003+08:00

Don't read if you don't want to, I'm just ranting cause I feel so.

Tomorrow is teacher's day, but with all due respect, IT IS IN THE MIDDLE OF EXAMS. Seriously, its okay if I just come and do minimal stuff and so but to be in charge of some big thing. The best is yet to come, I only have say few hours to prepare this thing. So I could guess what would happen if it doesn't work out tomorrow.

In addition, I'm stuck with add maths, only managed to finish 1 stupid question after figuring it out with the help of 2 friends and some 20 minutes, and there are a lot of things to do here and there, its like a my whole month is already laid out for me, heck, where did the fun go? Not to mention history, chemistry, biology, campfire, and etc etc etc.

SIEN~ if you know what that mean. I wish these things will go away quicker, but to wish that time would go faster seems to be something foolish, but probably worth it because of all these very sien stuff.

“Life's disappointments are harder to take when you don't know any swear words.” -Calvin and Hobbes.

Quiet Home

2010-05-10T16:21:00.005+08:00

The house has never been this quiet before, looking back we used to play lots of game together, no matter cardboard games, card games, or outdoor games, we always mix around. Well, I meant my siblings if you still couldn't get it.

Not so long ago - well its 3 months actually, but then time flies so fast that it just seems like yesterday - my brother furthered his studies to New Zealand, and today my elder sister went to Pahang for Matriculation. My eldest brother is only at KL, so he would come back home once or twice in a blue moon, so it still isn't that bad.

We used to have 7 people dining around the table, but now, only 4 is left. I bet my siblings will say I'm on the computer all the time that I won't mingle or notice the change of my surroundings. I'll have to admit that is partially true, but say, I think I will miss them.

Like they say, nothing last forever, ultimately, everyone dies. So, the conclusion is, appreciate people around you. =)

We Tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. -Frederick Keonig

Decision, decesions...

2010-04-21T22:50:00.003+08:00

Well, who doesn't have to make decision in their life anyway? Everyone has to pick something over another. No matter how big or small, something will be gained, and something will be lost.

I'm again stuck at the crossroad. I think its a simple question with a simple answer, but its just what I will gain and what I will lose. Besides, with so much missing information, I doubt I could make a good decision, I'm just diving head first into the pool without knowing whether the condition allows or not.

School, or Inmaju. Let's see.
If I am going to school this Saturday,
Pros
-Probably get some time with friends and stuff
-Wouldn't be left out in lessons
-No postponed homework

Cons
-Have to delay my lessons, and the longer it is, the more dreadful it'll become
-JPJ could clash with mid term examination which would result in a longer delay. It's on a Thursday by the way. (Like I said I don't have information)

If I go to Inmaju
Pros
-Able to finish my stuff including JPJ in 2-3 weeks time, just 1 week before exams.
-The faster I'm done with this, the better it is.

Cons,
-Probably just the opposite of the pros of going to school.

So, either way, I'll have to pick one, somebody help? God?

Proverbs 3: 5-6
Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understandings;
in all your ways acknowledge Him,
and He will make your paths straight.

The Aftermath

2010-04-13T20:25:00.006+08:00

Recalling the day when we hopped into the bus to go to SMK Seri Pagi for the march past competition. The day was very early. I woke up at 3 in the morning, we could reach at 4:30, but for me, I'd rather be early, at least 10-15 minutes, just so that I don't miss anything.

The day started with me encountering with some people in the middle of the road at 3:45 in the morning. Look like some RELA members - about 5-7 - on duty or whatsoever. They're looking for someone I guess, maybe some suspect that got away, or a hit and run suspect. God knows. I stopped, I was a little scared, but I kept my cool, I don't know why, but I stopped by the side of the road anyway. They checked my license, IC, and some of my belongings before letting me go. They look like gangsters in the first place. My dad told me to never stop other than they have uniforms and those official stands, but there's so many bogus policemen around, how to not run into some of them one day? On the other hand, my mum said they'd probably want to extort money from me, but lucky for me, they don't have a reason to do so, and even if they do, I only have like RM5, but the bike would probably worth more.

So the journey continued, and I can't help but I realized that the wait at the traffic light has gotten longer in the wee hours. Seriously, I waited, but the lights didn't change, so I ignored it either way, maybe something is wrong with me, but seriously, the light took eternity to change. I reached school, save and sound... thanks be to God. Not many people are there, only the girls because they have long long hair to tidy up. I went to the MPV room, or so I like to call one of the privilege of being a scout, a big big garage for the team, unlike other teams (no disrespect here) who have to live with the small room provided, where the space is so limited. My seniors are there, I only remember Liew, our chairman, and Hoi -hmm how should I address her- ok, our vice president there. I think Wilfred is there, but either way, I went to the other part of the MPV to catch some sleep.

5am, we practiced a few, got our stuffs which includes our shoes and shirt, got onto the bus, and set off for SMK Seri Pagi. The place is one hell of a big place which has 3 schools that would cover you for 19 years, which are the kindergarten, primary and secondary school. There's even hostels there for student to live in. The place there isn't too good, but I guess that is no excuse for a team that is really good. So there goes the normal procedure, changing our attires, eating some bread, checking our uniform, and then some morale boosting speech (and yet people wonder why emotion affects the human so much), and then the competition. I think we did pretty well, but like all of you who are well informed, we lost, for the second time, in a row.

It didn't eat into me, I didn't feel remorse or disappointed, I did expect us to win, but well, things don't always turn out like how we want them to. I think we've did one hell of a great job, but probably our opponent did better. Some teachers argued that we should win, some said we don't deserve, but well, whatever for, not like it's going to change a thing. I've got a good feeling for biased judging, but it is really hard to say... enough said, let bygone be bygone. Time to move on.

Romans 12:19 Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord

Pendant of Independent

2010-04-03T18:30:00.006+08:00

Today, I'm officially independent from the need of anyone picking me up to-and-fro school or whatever places I think I can reach with my 2 wheeled motorcycle. I've gotten my learner's license (L) after 3 weeks. Well, I only went there once a week, and each time, it lasted for at least 5 hours, how boring...

The first week is ultimately the most boring course I've got to attend a lecture that lasts 5 hours. Lucky for me, I got there late because of my instructor, and again, delayed because I and a few other got transferred into another lecture hall because the first one was full, and to top on that, the lecturer was late. Total time for lecture was approximately 2 and a half hours, and I almost died of that, imagine what 5 hours could do, you'd be peeling your eyes out to prevent you from sleeping. It's air-conditioned, so sleeping is okay but the lecturer will fail you, so there's no point in sleeping after all. Its so cold in there I couldn't perspire and well, lucky they had a recess halfway through.

The 2nd week was another pain in the ass. I thought I would only take my undang examination which is the colour blind test, and 50 Q&A with the computer, but I ended up taking Pra-L in the same day thanks to my instructor. I needed to leave by 2pm because I had a ceremony at school to attend (PIBG), and the feeling that I should be with my friends but instead here totally pisses me off. I took only 15 minutes + to complete the test, passed with 46 questions right. It only hard part is the demerit points and the things you'll get if you do certain stuff, the others are just plain common sense IMO (in my opinion). So like I said I ended up with Pra-L and well, I just have to bear it telling myself that there's no benefit pissing yourself off. So I finished whatever I've got to do, and still manage to reach school on time. Thanks be to God.

The 3rd week, which is today, I had to practice with the bike for ~~8 hours~~ 5 hours now that I'm done with 3. The courses aren't very easy, but it can be achieved by practicing, which is what I did, for 2 and a half hour, the rest are break time because its a pain in the butt sitting on the bike too long and with the sun shining. I decided to leave at 11:30, because the sun is getting hotter.

I'm just glad I only have to do this twice in my whole life, ~~I couldn't bear with waking up early in the morning on my Saturdays~~ even if it isn't motor lessons, it would've been march pass practice that's screwing my Saturdays anyway.

I'll try to stay alive with this new toy, may God protect me.

Jeremiah 17:7 "Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him."

Done and Over With

2010-03-26T13:19:00.007+08:00

Our school's first monthly test is finally over, and ~~I can't express how glad I feel~~ I don't think there's anything to celebrate or to be glad of. Its just another day, with different things. Instead of homework, which you do it yourself, you get pieces of papers, which you also do yourself. So there isn't much of a difference other than you're being judged, and that remark will be recorded.

Well, if I were to ask you why do you study, your answer would probably be because of exam. So where did the fun in learning go? What happened to the curiosity in man himself to know more? I guess generation has changed, the Physics reference book I got said that men are always curious and would really like to find out how things work, but I guess everything is so much diffrent than before. I asked my dad this question, he said that, if there isn't any exam, you people wouldn't study. He got a point alright.

I got back my Biology paper today, and I was pleased with myself for scoring 86%. Would like to thank God, because he gave me the wisdom to do it.

Philippians 4:13 "I can do everything through Him who gives me strength."

1 Down, 3 More to Go

2010-03-23T17:55:00.006+08:00

Yea, Don't ask me why, I seem to be updating my blog more and more often... maybe it isn't something bad after all, seeing that I got too much free time. So much that I keep checking back on facebook for nothing, might as well spend those about-to-waste time here.

So today, 3 papers down, BM, Bio, and Maths. All 3 fairly decent, just Biology a little easy. Thank God I could answer adequately, not hoping for A+ though, I would admit I didn't really put in much effort in this one. Maths is challenging though, Some of my mates couldn't finish the paper in the given time of an hour. It requires lots of applying-what-you-learn instead of just remembering the formula.

Currently, studying Chemistry, and I realized I've run out of things to read, as in I don't read those unnecessary stuff or just plain lazy. In fact, I haven't touched English or Moral. English should be okay for me and I'll have enough time for Moral tomorrow which is an hour since I don't take Art (literally). The school is smart enough to put those all classes subjects like moral, history, and maths where everyone -despite of science or art stream-has to take them. Pretty sure its to ensure that no one go back before time.

I think that's all for now, nothing much to scribble about in such a short time, see you sometime around.

Mark 10:21 “With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.”

First Monthly Examination

2010-03-22T16:10:00.005+08:00

Yeap, it is coming, in less than 15 hours, and yet I'm still here, blogging my mind off. Of course I have a book with me, entitled Biology Form 4.

I don't usually do long term preparation, all my preparation are short and painful. Well, I'd prefer that to long and less painful. It's only a monthly exam, and most people are really taking it very seriously. I guess that they are career orientated and really want a good result so they'll have a bright future. A few months back, I've seen a scholarship website that requires consistent grades. Then I shall be doomed, I never had any good consistent grades since form 1. I'd normally put more effort in vital subjects and exams like the 7 core subject in PMR (Chinese is a special exception *ahem*) and year end exams that would ultimately decide which class I go to the following year.

Talking about starting now, tomorrow is already the test. I'm 70% done with Biology. 0% done with BM, and 0% done with Maths. Cool huh? But tonight, I shall be done with all 3 of them, some magic trick perhaps? My Catechism teacher once asked the class, if a girl believes fully in God, and really listens in class, but never once attended tuition class, how many A+ will she get out of 10. Some said 8 some said 5, but never one answered 10, and as you guess so, the answer is 10.

That would be another story then, we'll see what happen. Good luck to all. =)

Matthew 6:32 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Birthday Anyone?

2010-03-19T23:59:00.013+08:00

My Sister's post about the same topic -http://carolynlow18.blogspot.com/2010/03/to-andrew-with-love.html a more elaborated blogpost compared to mine.

Exactly 12am. now, wanted to blog this before my birthday ends, but it seems its already 20th of March, nevertheless, let the story begin.
Recalling back, I had a birthday celebration at Jiao Qi's house last Sunday (14th March). Don't ask why, but it was held there. It was a barbeque dinner. I've only celebrated with my friends since form 3 so this would be my second time. It was a great night, and I enjoyed the company there. Having brain dead for the moment, I don't know how to further elaborate it.

19th of March started with me still on the computer, well technically it starts at 12AM and I haven't really sleep yet, get a few wishes online and through the phone, thanks for that. My family did this. =) Sweet huh?
waking up at 11. I slept at 12 last night and its because I was fatigue provided that I just came back from camp. So the day continued with lunch and games on the computer. Some where in the late afternoon, I received a mail, literally, from one of my junior friend - Adeline.

My ex-senior threw a surprise party for me when my mum and I went out to buy a birthday cake. Well, sorry to burst you guys' bubble, but I wasn't that blur to not suspect anything, but thanks nevertheless. Sometime I wonder whether I'm worth you guys' time, but hmm, its my birthday right? So the rule "I get what I want " applies right?

I think I'll let the picture do the talking, wall of text would've been a tad too boring, but before that, I would like to thank those who have spent their time, money, and energy in throwing out those parties, those gifts, and all your wishes. Thanks much. =)

People involved in the BBQ Party are-
Ying Ying, Jiao Qi, Zhong, Yi Ling, Jian Hui, Soon, Seow, Pei Vern, Ai Nee, Wilfred, Qin Yi.
For the surprise party-
My family- My mum, eldest brother, Eric, Sisters, both Carol and Christine
Friends - Clement, James, Stephen, Ara, Chee Jong, Chin Chin, and Ying Ying.

So this is what happened, a big mess.

The ice-cream cake. Its kinda nice don't you think?

-Signing off at 12:37am.-

The Pieces That Brought Us Together.

2010-03-18T16:03:00.006+08:00

Today, Friday, 18th of March 2010, 4:04 p.m. and about to blog about the camp I just came back from. Currently listening to some music, and downloading bleach, an anime, which is getting as boring as ever... little surprised by the speed today at 137 kp/s... it used to be like 20 or 30 but well, the more the better.

The camp started 2 days ago, which is the 16th, and again the venue is Eagle Ranch, and we're sleeping in A-huts, which is so much better compared to KemRI. The toilet was great too; well at least it’s clean. We got there, and got divided into groups.

So, the pieces on the left are what brought our group members together, a picture of a hamster. Camp is really the same routine like every single year, so if you're a prefect reading this... it's going to be a boring one. So, let’s not talk about the day and the night, I'll talk about what I think about this camp.

Well, RM 70 for this camp isn't that bad, but well, anything unnecessary that costs money IS bad, even if it’s RM 2. It's not called selfish, kiam siap or anything; it’s just called spending money wisely. Since it is so much for compulsory participation, I don't think I have much of a choice. Lying is too much a hassle and well if I get fired I would've wasted another RM 100+- for school uniform. So fine, I couldn't do anything now that it is paid and the camp is over, like they say, money come, money goes.

The food is slightly lower than average, but well, compared to food at KemRI, the food and drinks here are much appreciated, and because we're all starving, even shit will turn into something good. Compared to last year, the food was good and the drinks are much appealing. Well, we could all guess that the government is broke and didn't really put a lot of funds into school. My school had to pay its own electricity and water bills it seems. The board asked for contribution and loaned from PIBG and those stuff, so what can I expect? If we want better food etc, it wouldn't be RM 70 but RM 770, exaggerated, maybe?

Activities are the usual, what more than water and mud, the punishment and humiliation? We have a flag, egg and God knows what we have to protect throughout this 3 days. There is just one thing I don't get, suppose we were all about to play a water station game, of course you have to put the flag aside because its friggin mah-jong paper which are so tofu they could tear under the pressure of anything. So, the question is how to fend off these thieves from taking them? I got absolutely no idea. I wouldn't use this as an excuse for my team because there's someone who can't play water due to some reasons, but well, again I'm not blaming you guys for losing the stuff... we all make mistakes don't we? I'm just pondering on the logic.

Lesson learnt, trust, we're suppose to trust our leaders, but the irony is they cheat on us. E.g. they ask for our egg for God knows what purpose, and shall we give them, the egg is gone, if we don't give them, they'll say we don't trust them OR they'll keep on convincing us to give them our egg. Such irony, but well, to attend such camps is to agree to be humiliated, punished, and tortured to the max.

Overall, it wasn't such a bad camp; it has improved since last year, like it is more in order. Like the photo session. At least I don't have to join as a participant next year, or maybe I will, but either way, I'm just glad it’s over.

Looking at my download, it has already reached 92% of 170MB. Cool, I thought. I can't seem to fall asleep before I start blogging. Lots of thanks to my uncle for the KFC snack, my granny and aunt for birthday presents. =)

-signing off-

Year 2010

2010-03-05T17:09:00.003+08:00

First post of 2010... I'm updating this seldomly... but I don't think it's a problem when it comes to updating because if you're following me, it'll come up on your wall feed, unless you remove your "follow" after the authur doesn't update in 3 days. =D

2010 wasn't a good start, I can still recall the day when we went and pick our classes at the hall, and dang, I'm pretty sure I won't have a good mate in the same class for some time. With the new subjects, I'm coping kind of well but not anymore.

Till date, all teachers are pisesd off with us. Duh, isn't that obvious? anyone in form 4 science stream should know. People always compare, and yeah, we're compared with our peers. Our class, unique in it's own way, could make so much noise that 1 teacher cried, 2 teachers walked out of the class just like that, and 1 teacher refusing to teach. I guess I couldn't care less, nor can I help it. I don't make up 50 students in that class. Me alone cooperating isn't enough, you might say I could've control the class... but heck, everyday for the next 365 days? Hell no.

Considered that the load of homework has been increased in form 4, I find it hard to finish them all in school. I don't really like to bring homework to school because there's just too much distraction at home, but I don't think I have a choice. I used to do homework at the slightest oppurtunity, seizing it like gold. But it seems to me that the time is wasted floating to one class to another, getting lectures from teachers, or whatever else you could think of.

Hmm, after acadamics, I'll talk about curriculum. the busiest one I have, Scouts. The name list was a hassle like it is suppose to be every year. Next would've been the marching practices. I don't remember the sun being so hot. For the past 3 years, the sun couldn't even give me a headache. Now, standing underneath it for 1 and a half hour already gives me pain. I'm even having practice tomorrow (6/3/10) from 8 in the morning till 2 in the afternoon. This is nuts... seriously, even if I have the heart to practice, I don't think I can take such long hours. The police cadet in return, have it from 8 to 5. These people really are ironman afterall.

My mood. Well lately people have been telling me I look like I've just returned from hell. Looking awfully moody with less or little expression at all. I tried asking myself, but nothing in me replied. I guess I'm having that monthly mood swings that girls have. @@ I got a new spectacle at RM 130 (thanks dad =D ) because my former one was broken (don't ask how).

p/s: I think that people who blog too often are emo people because they don't have anyone to tell their stuff to and have to resort to blogging to let things out. lol.

Survivor Style Cooking Competition.

2009-10-21T16:03:00.004+08:00

Long time no see pal, its not that I'm studying my ass off I could hardly write anything, its probably because I'm too lazy + lack of inspiration. The good mood today have empowered me to post something up. =D

We had this little survivor cooking today at school, well it wasn't really a good day for everyone... I personally know what it feels like when the freaking fire doesn't light up after 10 tries, but hey, cheer up, its part of our learning process, some little survival skills could help somehow in the future. Who knows?

I guess this post would be another wall of text without any pictures, I don't like to hold a camera all the time, but if you're interested to read more, go ahead. =D Well first it was a boring morning in class, Jeremy and I didn't bring our PSP, and Naren's PSP only have some shitty games that couldn't be any less interesting, and that includes Patapon 1, I'd really prefer the second one.

I went out the class, despite being warn of being scolded and punished, but it looks like I was quite welcomed by the 2 counsellors on the excuse of finding them for some other matter and just merge into the crowd. =D Well, I didn't know what encouraged them to go cooking anyway, some people have really no idea in lighting a good fire (not saying that I'm any better =D) well, at least if you wanna go cook some stuff, why not learn something through the internet? It saves you from humiliation from the judges.

Despite of the chaos some teams faced, some managed to find order in it, with quick swift moves, they set up their tools, tables, and stuff - good teamwork. Whereas, some group have only 1 person lighting it and another 4 look on... Well, believe me, it happens alot of time that people just look at you and seems like they don't know what to do. So the 2 main course of the day was Kuey Teow and fish. Alas, most of them did fry kuey teow, but there was one group that did laksa kuey teow but too bad it doesn't taste much good since their fire isn't really stable, which probably means their food are raw. Well, fish seem to be popular with any survivor-like cooking. Some tasted good, some tasted raw... oh well. =D

It was a tiring day, and the winners are as expected with Sye Ying's group that came in first, they have nice decorating which are really presentable and the food aren't half bad, and bonus marks for side dishes like taufu and drinks perhaps? Second team was Ying Li's. Their's aren't bad either even though they have some tough time with the fire earlier, thanks to Pn Elizabeth, things went smooth (HEY! isn't that cheating? =D) Nevertheless, the food tasted good and they also got your home-made coffe, self-service style =D. You have to pour your own tea, add your own sugar, and pour your own milk... sounds just like home to you? The thrid place went to some people whom I don't really recognize, so well, that wraps it up for today. =D

I don't know why, but I'm in a very very good mood today... God knows why... =D

The Seremban Half Marathon 2009

2009-07-13T18:26:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was the Seremban Half Marathon 2009; it could be said as a very good experience and will serve me as a good memory. On that actually day, I planned to run with my elder brother to actually give me the push, but I think I’ll eventually lose out to him anyway because there’s a reason why he is physically stronger than me.

I reached the MPS field at about 6:15 together with my sister and brother, we registered and in return we get some safety pins to pin the numbers on our shirt, our numbers sound nice, my sister’s was K2496 (doesn’t really sound nice), mine was L2339 which kind of rhyme and my eldest bro is G288 (you know that the number 8 is good, the more the merrier). And heck, my sister already got all 8 pins and so does my brother, they don’t even have to take extras from the counter. Does everyone like to keep them? Not me at least. We did warm up, a few stretching and a guy in red offered some heating gel and I was the only one taking it among the 3 of us, isn’t it suppose to be good to rub it on your legs?

Since we’re all in different category, we all started at different time, and ended at different time. My journey was kind of bored since most of the time, I’m running solo. Like I said, I planned to run with my eldest brother but my plan was foiled, so I just ran, with only self-motivation. It an 11 km route, or 9, I don’t know which, some even say 10. The certificate wrote 11, the pewter wrote 9 which are kind of confusing. I ran alone, but at times, I ran past a few friends and I gave them a light pat on the back, and sometimes, they run past me, and at times, I ran together with a few. I first ran with Chin Kee Wen, he constantly jogged and sprinted when he reached the last roundabout in the leg of the race; I eventually lose out to him because well, he keeps on jogging. Next was Tan Jian Hong, well, he’s the one I can keep up to the most. I jogged alongside with him for about 30 minutes, and eventually catch up with Kee Wen but was again left out because I ran out of breath, It’s like all of the sudden, I suck in air but I’m unable to breathe. So I stopped abruptly, and manage to keep on walking and sprinted when I’m about 300 meters away from the finishing line.

I’ve always wanted that pewter. I’ve got that intention since form 2, and hence made a few efforts to practice once in awhile, but they were never constant, but still, I manage to get the 288th placing, 12 more and I’m out. I clocked in at 1 hour 5 minute and 15 second, which is quite impressive to me. The pewter is precious, and I kept hold on to it, until I got back home and safely put it into my certificate holder. Like usual, they provide free drinks and food, but heck, whose in the mood to actually enjoy the food after such a tiring run? I drank few cups of 100+ and Milo, and a few more cereal and decided that we’re full.

Went home around 10 and had a nap until 1 and played DotA(Defense of the Ancient) until 6 ++, a nice day indeed. Like they say, a seed you sow is a corn you reap.

The route for the Seremban Half Marathon 2009.

Obituary

2009-06-30T17:08:00.004+08:00

sorry for the false alarm, but the little tortoise jumped back to life today... amazing huh?

Assembly

2009-06-30T15:50:00.002+08:00

We all have school assembly, some are long, some are short, some are troublesome, and some are just mere pain in the ass. Most of you who is in my school – SMK Bukit Mewah – would know what our daily assembly would look like.

For prefects, we had to get ready by 7 at our respective classes to turn off the lights and get the students to go to the assembly ground. There was one thing that I find it really funny, lights can be so easily turned on and off, why do they need people to turn it off for them anyway? Can’t someone automatically help themselves and cut prefects some slack. We have a reading session at around 7:15 in the morning, where the Nilam song will be played, last year, the atmosphere would turn instantly silent when the song reaches it end, but nowadays, things change, students are more prone to talking to their friend than following the rules. Once again, it’s the prefect’s job to babysit these people to ask them to sit down. Some would refuse to sit to the front because they’re so scared of the discipline teacher. I was like if you’re so fucking afraid to get caught, why not just follow the fucking school rules?

After the 20 minute reading session, speeches would begin; enough with Monday assembly that would last for an eternity, nowadays, even other days with unofficial assembly would last 30 minute or so. Why? Because those discipline teacher had nothing else to do but crap in front of all the students, constantly reminding them to again follow the school rules. They seem to never get bored repeating the same thing over weeks or months. Let me tell you something, even if they don’t get bored of themselves, we do! Not only they’re wasting our time listening to things that we all are suppose to know, but just didn’t bother to do, but they’re also obstructing the lessons that are suppose to begin earlier.

Sometimes, when you want something so badly, life just doesn’t give you, and when you want it to happen, it just simply refuses to happen. Our morning assembly today (Tuesday) lasted until 8:10. Out of all the days to have a long assembly, it falls on a Tuesday and that is a day where my class is going to have our physical education class, which is a class which we enjoy most due to going out to the court or field to have fun. So I was becoming restless as ever, because not only are those announcement unimportant to me - because I’ve heard them so many times I could recite them backwards – but they’re also becoming an annoyance since we only have PE classes every week.

In the end, we didn’t have PE classes, we had only like 20 minute to spare after changing our clothes, and when we’re just about to head to the court to play some ball, we’re called back to our class by the teacher. So there goes, one of my favorite classes, into the drain.

p/s: just letting go of my frustrations here, don’t get offended anyhow.

Christian Fellowship Camp

2009-06-09T07:56:00.002+08:00

I was never a fan of Christian Fellowship (CF) Camp, well, not until I’ve actually joined one. I changed my mind about it and I think I’ll join them every year and keep my finger crossed that the camp will be fun. My first CF Camp was just a week ago – 1st of June. It’s a 2 days 1 night camp, but I would definitely like it if they could make it 3 days 2 nights. When I was packing my bag for this camp the night before, I was like “what? That’s all?” because the camps I usually go are either camps to earn badge or just some plain torture camp, and all these sorts of camp needs a lot of things like parang, and all those stuffs, but for CF camp, things just aren’t the same, just a few clothes, toiletries, and shoes. You don’t even have to being your own eating utensils. The fee is RM 55 if I remember correctly, quite expensive, but it’s worthwhile.

I arrived at school about 8 or so, most of everyone is a stranger to me, because I’ve never joined a CF camp, and ultimately, I wasn’t a member. Only a few I know including Clement, John, Stephen, Chee Jong, Ru Yen, etc. etc. I didn’t have anything much to do there, just a little eager to depart for the camp, I don’t really recall being taken into attendance, but guess I couldn’t bother much, we headed for the bus later and departed towards Port Dickson. I can’t really remember how it was in the bus, I only know that Chee Jong is doing some great attempt and me and a few pals are teasing him. He had a new phone, which was kind of okay to me but it’s what the content inside that gave us a few more ideas just to tease on him.

We reached The National Union of Bank Employees (NUBE) after 30 minutes or so. What a name it has, because for gamers, it just sounds too similar to noob, which means a newbie. Anyway, we got there and John and Stephen divided us into groups, and were briefed about the camp’s rules which include all the basic rules like no littering and so on, and so, we proceeded to our dorms, and my dorm’s air conditioner works perfectly fine, it was much cooler compared to the other dorm. There are 10 beds – 5 double deckers – that didn’t have anything on them, we’re required to help ourselves, but I got so lazy, I just spread the bed sheet over the bed without even tucking the sides under the bed.

We headed down for our first activity – the icebreaking, which is the basic for all camps if you’re even bothered to know each other, it wasn’t really effective, even I myself just stick to the people I know. It was a rock-paper-scissors game. I’m not going to brief too much on games because it’ll eat up a page or two if I go into detail. We also had the, bomb-the-other-country and fold-your-paper-airplane-and-hit-your-opponent game, followed by the pass-the-paper-round-in-rhythm game. We had lunch a continued with Pastor Phillip’s session. We had a balloon game which is similar to volleyball, and I keep tumbling over saving a few balls but as I recall, all of them are fruitless. Next is the build-the-tallest tower game, which we came in second. I was quite entertained by the activities anyway, their unique and something that are rarely played. (Or I rarely went for any camps)

Next, we had a few beach games including the hold-a-stick-upright-without-touching-it, use-your-hand-to-fill-the- bottle and the squeeze-the-water-from-your-hair-to-the-bottle game. Holding the stick upright is a little tricky game, each group member has to hold the strings that are tied to the top and the bottom of the stick, and mind you, it’s no small stick, at least as tall as you. It requires a lot of coordination and teamwork, and for the squeeze-the-water-from-your-hair-to-the-bottle game, of course girls have more advantage because their hair are freaking long, and my hair is like… 1 inch? And next comes the free time, where I had the most fun tripping people over and taking down people into the sea, sort of like wrestling, but with a few combinations of self defense skills which I saw on TV that worked most of the time. I apologize to those who are offended and those who are hurt and I hope that you don’t mind because I was just playing around.

During the night, we had a talk by Pastor Phillip yet again, and we reflected what we did during the activities and what we learned from them. His talks are very much interesting and I didn’t manage to fall asleep. The talk summed as:
1. Self Discipline
• The ability to do what is right even when you don’t feel like it.
2. Core Values
• Principle you live by that enable you to take a moral stand.
3. Sense of Identity
• A healthy, realistic self-image-based on who God made you to be.
4. Emotional Security
• Your emotional health that enables you to be stable and consistent.

After the talk, we headed back to our dorm to sleep, but there are a few people who are playing badminton in the freaking dorm, and I felt sorry for Pastor Phillip because what he taught (self discipline) didn’t work into these young men’s mind, and the worst is yet to come, because shortly after they’ve stopped and the lights were off, some inconsiderate stranger who live beside us are making so much noise I could barely sleep, but I made it through the night somehow.

The second day, we were promised another beach trip but was canceled because time didn’t allow it. I was sort of disappointed because I didn’t get another go at wrestling, we had devotion instead, and we had this session by Aunt Pek Leng, just like another pastor (doesn’t mean she is one) she gave a passage from the bible and had a few mini games with us, and whoever that gets a right answer when questioned will get a candy and so forth.

In the end, there was prize giving ceremony to those who won the most games from the first day till the second. My group came in the first, which I’m happy of, because my member (ahem*, I was the group leader) had great teamwork among ourselves and cooperation is very much shown in each and every one of us. My group consists of Clement as the supervisor, I as the group leader, Qing Hang, Elizabeth, Ru Yi, Laura, Anne Grace, and 2 very quiet girls – Gillian and Eleanor. I’m sorry if anyone is left out, but I think that is all, 9 members. I shared out our “bounty” on the bus, and we passed snacks all around the bus until nobody wants it anymore. We reached at school around 1 and went back to our own home soon after.

I felt that this camp have allowed me to learn more about protestants, cause I myself is a catholic. I also had a lot of fun while it lasted, it was a great experience and I look forward for more camps like these.

Check out Ru Yen’s blog about CF camp here!

Here are the pictures that will explain most of the activities that we had during the camp.

The rail is going to break at this rate.

Having some fun teasing Chee Jong =)

Briefing.... Briefing....

Randy Jackson, Paula Abdul, and Simon Cowell =)

The pass-the-paper-round-in-rhythm game.

Should be voted as best quote as the year.

"Volleyball"

I guess this is how tall the tower are suppose to be.

Mount Angsi

2009-06-03T11:53:00.001+08:00

I’m sure if you’re a friend to the active scout members, I’m sure you’ve heard some of them whine about how freaking tall the Mount Angsi is and how hard it was to actually reach the near peak of it, but I’m not here to whine, I’m here just to share some experience to those who never got the chance to climb a hill.

Basically, it’s all about reaching the peak of the mountain, with all your creative ways, some prefer to go at a constant pace and some would like to speed up and stopped all of the sudden; some will use a stick, and some with the help of others. We’ve gathered in school around 7 and reached Ulu Bendul around 8++. We only began climbing the mountain from the foot of the mountain on 9:30 a.m. because we’re required to register – that cost RM 5 – for our own safety. I heard that they’ll send search and rescue team if someone up there doesn’t come down by 7 in the evening. So, better safe than sorry, RM 5 is nothing compared to one’s life. The hill is not vertically straight of course; it is like the road to Genting Highlands where you drive around and around the hill until you reach the peak, and it’s about 825 meter tall by the way.

We were divided into 4 groups, 2 groups of boys and 2 groups of girls, each consisting about 10 people, but the grouping didn’t serve its purpose because when we went up half way, everyone was mixed up. We started at the foot of the hill eagerly, some are excited, some are preparing the worst and I thought it was boring. First, the situation was loud, and as we progressed, things just get quiet. Some got wet due to the waterfalls, some got their leg sprained, some got their shoulder blades all worn out and so on and so forth. Every time we finished climbing a small part of the hill and the path ahead was blocking by trees, we’re always hoping that we’ve reached the top, but to no avail, there was yet another path waiting to be climbed.

Even it was tiring, we never failed to entertain ourselves. With James, there is no way you can’t laugh. His jokes are mean, but well, they’re jokes right? And jokes are meant to be laughed at. It took us about 3 hours ++ to reach to about 700 meters and that is where the teacher decided to call it off. It was because the path was a 90 degree uphill climb due to soil erosion. I did climb the steep hill with 2 other friends with the help of ropes, and we sort of taken some picture of ourselves because that will be as far as we can go. I’m sure everyone read geography and at every 165 meter, there will be a decrease of 1 Celsius in temperature. So it was quite cool up there with the wind blowing.

As we started our way down the hill, I figured out that downhill is certainly a piece of cake since you’re one with the gravity pull, but since this is my first mountain climbing experience, of course I know I was wrong, if you don’t arrange your footing properly, you might end up in the hospital. I made my way down with my brother until the rest area, which a place where there is cool water is flowing from the top. The water is crystal clear and it still remains a mystery for me, but without any curiosity to bother, I just ate lunch with my fellow mates, and before I even start to continue, I cramped my both my legs and just managed to get some heat spray on my legs. The pain was devastating, but oh well, I’m not dead am I? We reached the bottom around 4 in the evening, most of the journey down is about helping each other out, especially the females, because some of them are injured, so we helped each other, and managed to make our way down.

It was a great experience altogether, and I must say that I sort of look forward for another go at Mount Angsi just for the fun of it, with some friends to joke with of course. And on this day itself, was one of my friends’ birthday (30/5), whose name is Jian Hui, she got injured pretty bad and she did agree that all her birthday was simply unforgettable.

Check Daniel's blog on this trip here!

It Isn't Going to End, Isn't It?

2009-05-11T13:45:00.002+08:00

It was a cool night after mother’s day celebration at a fine restaurant behind a bank. I was relaxing on the sofa, not changed from the occasion that I’ve return home for. I didn’t hesitate to lie on my back on the living room’s sofa which could accommodate 2 person, and without wasting any moment, I started reading a book - that I’ve borrowed from my friend 2 weeks back – like there wouldn’t be sufficient time if I dare waste another second.

While my soul was still into the book, imagining the scenes of the play from each line that is read into my brain, the character that was fulfilling his quest in prosecuting the so called villains, while the defendant’s lawyer tried his best to hang on to his seat without giving his client away, objecting to any irrelevant question that was shot to the witnesses on the stand that could expose any harm towards his client. Suddenly, my cell phone that was on the tabled flashed, and played a familiar tone - that I’ve heard for the past few months – which is my ringtone. Feeling uneasy at being disrupted, I pulled the book out of focus and gently put it on my chest while I reach for my cell phone in my pocket.

It was Josie, my close friend that returned from National Service just recently and I was no longer feeling disrupted due to the close friendship that we share. After reading her short text, I texted in a replied, and without any hesitation, tapped “send” and started to read my book again, digging for more juice to quench my curious about what will happen next, but again, I was interrupt. This time, it was a call, not a text. Feeling a bit irritated, I read the caller ID that was displayed on my screen. It was Brad that I’ve known him since form 2. I put the phone to my ears and started listening.

“Hey, do I look that horrible?” the voice came, without missing a beat.
Getting a little surprised for not knowing what he is talking about. “What?” I managed to blurt out to the cell phone.

But soon, the pieces all came together as he filled me in, I was betrayed. He knew a secret that I’ve talked bad about him, just some gossip I had with a few of my so called friends I’ve put in trust to them so that I wouldn’t end up in a terrible situation like this. I felt horrible, and simultaneously I don’t feel like having conversation with his now knowing that I was caught in the act and since lying isn’t my style I wouldn’t dare deny what I’ve done.

“Who put me in?” I said, trying to keep cool, but didn’t manage as my tone of anger slip through the words.
“I can’t tell!” he said, trying to protect his source, maybe even afraid that I’ll go and kill the one that have put me in this hot seat.
“Tell me now.” I threatened. “Or I’ll go to school tomorrow and screw you right up!”
“I can’t tell!” he repeated, this time with a little edge that he’s going to give in.

I continued the pursuit until he finally gave in. “It was Jane,” his tone told me that he was stammering a little, but I didn’t care anymore, my goal of finding whoever who turned me in was achieved.

I hung up the phone without thinking twice, Anger was boiling in me, knowing the fact that maybe I and Brad would no longer be friends, but I couldn't afford to care anymore; I just feel like going to school tomorrow and crack her up. "How can she do this to me? And I thought that you and I are close friends... always going along well. Why now?" I tried to clear my mind; I need to think rationally without taking sides. Starting to think rationally, Jane wasn’t even my in class when I talked bad about Brad. Feeling nothing less than confused, I started to think hard to recall when and where I’ve talked to and whether the fact that she was involved. Again, I texted a reply to Josie in responds to her new text that came into my inbox. This time, keeping my words cool, in case she was able to sense anything that is wrong with me. I didn’t want her to worry as she has her business to solve too.

Now knowing that I’ve again been lied to, I reached for my house phone – because house line to house line was cheaper – punched in the respective number, and waited for the other end to speak.

“What the hell?” not holding back my anger that I was lied in my face. “She wasn’t even there when I talked bad about you, so you better spill the beans now or I swear I’ll shove a pencil up your ass.”
“I can’t tell you!” the same sentences he managed to speak from the other end.
Feeling frustrated and having enough of all this mess, I hung up the phone again with a “fine” to end the conversation.

Currently, feeling unsatisfied with what I could find out, I’m starting to doubt my friends. How can I trust them now? Among the 6 of them while I was giving my opinion about Brad without feeling insecure or the feeling that I’ll be pulverized the moment I say something. One of them is a liar, as how I call it. “The wrong cancels the right.” that is what my science teacher was saying in the examination paper 2. I now doubt all 6 of them, feeling that I shouldn’t give them any piece of me. It's like déjà vu, even though not by the same people, it felt like I was being stabbed yet again by the same person. In the end, I couldn’t blame anyone but myself, “Why was I being so careless and didn’t be more cautious when pouring my trust into someone? Everyone lied, in one way or another.

Disclaimer:
1) Names have been changed.
2) This is the first time I write in a short story and not being informative like all my previous post. Feel free to comment.
3) Blogs really screws up the dialog format.

PSP (PlayStation Portable)

2009-05-07T10:31:00.001+08:00

Date Written: 6th of May, 2009.

If you're not a fan of PSP (PlayStation Portable), I suggest you skip, but thanks for reading anyway.

I recently won a PSP 2000 with a TA-088v3 motherboard - the latest motherboard for a PSP 2000. I bagged this thing a week before the marching competition back at April, if I recalled properly, it should be on the 10th of April. It was indeed a fortunate thing for me, to actually win a PSP from a Voting system (I was the lucky 700th or 1400th voter) for the competition "Jom Tunjuk Caramu" held by Cadbury Choclairs (sounds kind of "ciplak" right?) last year.

When the package arrived on that day, I wasn't at home, so my mother received the package with a sign for the delivery man. It reads that it’s from Cadbury Choclairs, so my sister actually almost put that package into the refrigerator (BBQ PSP), but before that she did shake the package - like everyone else would do if they receive a package out of nowhere - to determine whether it was sweet, but guess it wouldn't hurt if the "sweets" wouldn't melt if it isn't in the refrigerator, so it was left on the table for me to open when I was back from school at 6 in the evening.

When I got back that day, I was eager to find out what is in the content because I don't remember having anything to do with Cadbury. To find out that I won a PSP just overwhelmed me that moment. I was screaming, I was jumping, I was running around announcing I won a PSP like announcing that I won a billion ringgit lottery, I even called my brother at KL, just to tell him this little fortunate incident that happened to his younger brother.

Love your enemies like yourself (Luke 6:27-28), that was something I gave a second thought. I won this of course because of God's will. I actually voted for this guy who joined the Cadbury competition. It was a talent show and the winner will bag an Xbox (the hell, Microsoft said it was “an” instead of “a”) and he emerged as the champion. He was disliked among his peers, he was unfairly judged, people mistreat him, maybe because of what he did to others, but I find no wrong of him against me, but I was definitely influenced by my peers who hated him. So I voted thinking "I'm not voting for him, I'm voting for the school" I voted this online, which didn't cost a cent, and bagged a PSP. Meaning to say: Free PSP, anyone?

Now for the less unfortunate event, the PSP 2000 with the latest motherboard was unable to be hacked for HEN (homebrew enabler that allows you to play "pirated" games that are downloaded from the web). I assure you that I am not the only one doing this, but the whole of Malaysia, Stores that even sell cracked PSP. I know I shouldn't do something bad just because everyone do so, because bullying the school bully just makes you as bad as them. But I'm sure you yourself would hack it because one UMD (Universal Media Disc, an optical disc medium developed by Sony for use on the PlayStation Portable) would cost you about 100 ringgit. Yes, I repeat, one (1) UMD for 100 ringgit. Is it worth it? It’s up to you.

But now, it can be hacked. The exploit was released, like a Trojan horse, where it was unrecognized by the security system, a loophole in the city that was about to be conquered. Arrows are released, footmen battled, artillery shots are fired, with the advantage of the Trojan, they won the battle easily due to the effort that they put into the battle strategy. The PSP 2000 is now vulnerable to homebrew games.

I would like to thank God, for this fortune, Jeremy Tay, a friend of mine, who is like my PSP Guru, and the guy (unnamed) who participated in the competition that allowed me to vote to win, and those who helped me direct and indirectly.

18th of April

2009-04-20T21:59:00.001+08:00

Written: 19th of April 2009

18th of April 2009 is certainly a day to remember. There are 3 things I’m aware of on this date. First off its Ja She’s 18th birthday, 2nd thing is I have NGO marching competition, and the last but not least, Prefect Gala 2009.

The day started with my alarm ringing at 4 in the morning. I turned it off and went back to sleep. Upon realizing that my brother woke up and went out the room, I decided to get up and move on too. My sister woke up at 4 too, and we all had breakfast together, wash up and soon finding ourselves departed to school for the once in a year, NGO marching competition. I was high, excited, and definitely eager to win this thing and move on to the state level and have another go with Palung 7. We lingered around the school, played with some marching steps, and even saluting the moon (it was a full moon)! There is also one part where 3 of our members went to the cyber café for some games. We called them through phone to get their ass back here. We lined 2 lines along the” gajah menyusur” to “welcome” our members back like they’re the VVIP but when they come up the long path, we clapped hands at first, and then we “raped” them. It was all funny and we had lots of laughter together with our commander – Jun Wei. We had 2 rehearsal and we went to the MPV lab to get changed. We went for our uniform check and soon after, we were ready by the side of the hall, getting ready for the war ahead. Everything is still clear in my mind now, we did our best (I think) and we unfortunately lost to SDAR by 12 mere points. What a pity, but we’ll definitely try again next year won’t we?

The long day proceeded with Gala rehearsal at around 1, which I clearly don’t have the mood to do anything else for the whole frigging day Ying Ying gave me a chance to go home and I took it and off I go. I took a bath and had a few games to just clear my mind off of these sad memories. I don’t feel like sleeping at all, even though I’m feeling a little tired. After a few games which lasted approximately 1 hour or so, I changed to my prefect uniform and asked my brother to fetch me to school. The school was like usual, no added decorations, people are in haste to get things done, some still practicing and some discussing and all sorts of activity. I saw some of the seniors and I’m not close to most of them at all, so talking was definitely out, so I decided to follow my sister around since I don’t really have the mood to do anything else.

At round 7 in the evening, the first program of the night started the opening ceremony - An action packed sketch with a little violence. I find that a lot of people like violence (try happy tree friends) because this ceremony got everyone cheering. They’re all like fighting and killing and lots of fighting (repeated on purpose). Like I said, people just love these types of show. The theme was Destined Dragons, which wasn’t that bad… DD sounds nice. The gala proceeded with dancing, singing, and all those crap which are nice and I think this gala is better compared to last year because last year is such disaster for me, and probably that’s the reason why I don’t want to join gala this year.

At the end of the show, we have follow dance, well, not some romantic duet just some casual dance which was led by Jamie. So, like usual, this is the part where I just sit at a corner and just watch, it’s in my family blood, my brother and sister didn’t dance too. I was just caught off-guard when the teachers go upstage to dance. It isn’t a crime of course, just a little surprised. The show ended at around 11 and my brother lingered to socialize with his friends, my sister waiting half patiently, and I just looking around the assembly ground where I was marching on the past 12 hours. Looking around, doing the marching steps again, remembering the used-to-be happy moments in the early morning and finding the moon to salute to, but I noticed that there’s no moon tonight, hidden behind the skies…

P/s: I’m all fine now and I’m capable of moving on after the defeat in NGO marching competition, thanks for concern.

P/s2: Ja She’s at National Service, so we didn’t get to celebrate whatsoever, but I did wish her over the phone. Happy 18th birthday!!

P/s3: My sister got something to say too, she doesn’t have a blog and well, she asked me to include her message.