Necro ~

Aiseh, time to blow off the dust off my blog... well, a little resurrection for whoever who is still reading anyway...

It's about 8 months since I last posted... hmm, that's quite awhile, but who cares? I'm the boss here =X

Well, normally I don't update regularly because I don't have much to say actually, or rather, if I say them, will there be anyone listening? So now I guess me and my blog are buddies now... haha, I'm going to tell him things because I'm sure he'll remember :D

Today is independence day, not like it affects me a lot, most importantly, today is the day I start anew, with new resolutions and priorities in life.

In the middle of trials currently, still have accounts paper after the holidays ==" why is trials around the holidays anyway?

Raya celebration was ok... well, if you're wondering why my family celebrate raya... its a pretty long story, but anyway, we kinda celebrated it, went around malacca and visiting a few relatives here and there and had lots of food.

Thanks @ Mohana for the reader's digest, helps keep my holiday a little less boring :D

Chee Jong just left for Canada recently, all the best to him at his new place :D

*My heart's a stereo, It beats for you, so listen close~ *

Worried Worried

Well yea, I know worrying has no help in making decision or in doing anything whatsoever, but I just can't help it when everything seems to be so unclear at this point.

Even music can't calm me down, just feel like breaking down and cry... Who said guys can't cry? I certainly am not afraid about what you think about me.

But well, I guess you can laugh at me for being so worried at this stage of life, but seriously, who hasn't been worried about what their future holds anyway?

Think positive... think positive... think positive...

Anyway, I have a nice song to share...



p/s: I don't think I'm becoming emo. thx :D

It's the Holidays Already?

Time flies they say, and yes indeed, another year has gone. Examinations are gone, and holidays are here to stay... for awhile I guess, next thing I know, it is going to fly by too. I guess I'm getting worse at talking to myself... or more like, talking to the computer. I have to say that I blog less frequent... just not too appealing anymore, well, it's better to talk to someone rather than a computer right?

Thanks be to God, I'd manage to get through the examination season. It was quite a stressful one I'd say, but thanks for the strength He has given me, I've manage to get through it, and still score. Very much satisfied with my grades and marks. Amen ~

Now, there are more things to come, Graduation Night and Scouts for instant, I've got camps and functions running up, I guess I wouldn't be too free to just sit here and do nothing. Fret not, It's a blessing in disguise! At least I won't rust sitting here all day long. Just so you know, I believe that everything is a blessing somehow. Like this verse I came across recently.

James 1:2-4 "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything"

So I guess I'll have to gear myself up for the upcoming challenges as well as form 5's life will kick in real soon, and before I end, I would like to wish my friends a Happy Deepavali, and all the best in your life.

God bless.

Busy...

Busy nowadays... with lots of things to catch up on, especially homework and studies, examinations are crawling closer... scary.

Now that scout's farewell dinner - a trip to Port Dickson - and prefects' farewell dinner - a dinner at Sungei Ujong Club - are over, most things are cleared up and I thought I would finally be able to knuckle down and concentrate on my studies. How wrong I was.

First up, I'm having this... everything-has-to-do-with-you-post, keeps me on my feet most of the time. It's this head-boy post, my job runs daily... I don't get a break, except for Saturdays and Sundays. There are many new things I'm exposed to, and many new things that I realized I never did back then.

Every time a system in school breaks down, every time the students run out of the assembly ground, every time the canteen is in the mess, every time the prefects get into trouble, every time the student manage to sneak down Gate A... it all has something to do with me... It's actually quite sickening... Not that I could help it, worst is it'll last for another year.

Next up is graduation night... I thought I could do it after the year-end examination, again I was wrong. Meetings are running up, jobs need to get done and problems arising. Honestly, I didn't want to attend this graduation night if possible, but since I've already been tied to it by someone I have to give face to... might as well admit defeat. Maybe some would say I should do this so that next year's people would do it for me too, but tell you what, I don't care if I

have a prom next year, it's a waste of cash. I'd rather not have one. Maybe I'm ignorant, but if you have time to spare, tell me what good prom does. Thanks.

You don't have to question my commitment towards my work, when it is my work, I will get it done.

After all these ranting, I still owe some people my thanks for giving me support and guidance all these while, much appreciated. God willing, everything will go fine.

Motivator for the Day

Life is all in how you look at it. Through the way you choose to look at it, you can make your life into anything you wish.

What if you could transform your resentment for having to do something into enthusiasm for getting it done? The powerful and amazing thing is, you can.
Instead of being angry about something that's happened, you can be determined to make it right. Instead of being disappointed by the setbacks, you can be motivated by the new possibilities they've created.

What are you looking at, that looks difficult or painful or annoying or just plain impossible? What if you looked at it differently?

You can choose your perspective, you can choose your feelings, you can choose your thoughts, your words and your actions. No matter what life sends your way, you can choose how to look at it and what to do with it.

Get in the habit of looking at life with love and gratitude, and with enthusiasm for the positive possibilities. When you look, see the life you wish to live, for you have what it takes to make it be.
-- Ralph Marston

With Greater Power...

...comes greater responsibility... right, like you haven't heard of it, everyone heard of it, at least once in their entire life. I think it was from Spiderman... or is it?

Just recently I was made head boy of the school, and that has made changes in me. I wouldn't say it is a bad thing, I would take it as a chance to improve myself. Like they say, for everything gained, there is something that you will lose.

What I lost, is myself. What I gained, is another part of me. I used to be someone who doesn't really care about what is happening around, a happy-go-lucky person, where the biggest thing you can worry about is... having a good game on DotA? well, I can't think of anything to worry about back then. Stress-free, care-free.

As of now I have to become someone who needs to be on his best everyday. From the way my hair is combed, to the shoes that have to be polished. Well, I'm serious, now I'm using hair oil to tidy up my hair, I think it's been years since I last use that. I don't get to play around in class, or sleep in it, or leave my homework undone or anything-bad-or-mischievous-you-can-think-about. Now it is planning everyday, worrying about future events, organizing them, lots of cash involved, lots of people involved, lots of skills involved, from leadership skills to communication skills to whatever skills there is on your mind.

My blog's description says it all, nothing matters here, I could say what I want... but really, I won't be surprised to be informed by teachers/students/whatever people that I need to watch what I say on my blog.

As the workload increases, I'm lucky to have people to help me, whether they will help or not, it would've been another story, but I know there are some I can fully count on... you know who you are. =]

But as usual, I won't have to worry, God is always there, even when human fails me. (not saying they will, at least some people)

John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you, I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

August

A blink of an eye... and August is already here, Have been relaxing since the mid-term examinations, and now another round of them in 2 weeks time. Time flies... I could still remember the first day of form 4 when we were about to pick our respective package of subjects... heck I could even remember back then when I was in kindergarten... but the first day of form 4... felt like it just happened recently.

In fact, a lot has happened this year, many thrilling experiences, more homework, and more responsibility to take on. After most of the annual general meetings (AGM) in our school... some are happy, some are sad, some wanted the posts, some don't want them. It could have been an opportunity to build up your personality at a price of extra responsibility.

Sometimes I doubt myself, whether I could lead properly, whether people would really support me, and forgive me if I make mistakes... we're all humans after all, I just hope I wouldn't be the one that causes the downfall of the uniform body I'm holding now. Like in history textbooks and supported by Pn Noraini (history teacher), every kingdom, country, and state would have its peak, and would have its downfall. Hopefully, downfall doesn't come under my lead.

Well, I know I don't have to worry beacuse...

Matthew 6:24-34 "

“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labour or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendour was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

Even if you don't believe what the bible says, part of it is true anyway, worrying won't add a single hour to your life, might as well enjoy while you're at it, life is short they say...